Almost 2 months since the last blog. I haven't forgotten about my xanga. Life is always so confusing. Right when I think I've figured out who I am, everything changes so quickly. And now, I'm asking myself again, "who am I?" After Preschool, kindergarten, grade school, middle school, high school, and now a year of college, I'm still puzzled as to who I am. I'm somewhat the same and yet there are so many things different now. To say that over the years, trying to just be comfortable with who I am was already a challenge. What do I do that is just me covering my emotions and what is it that I really feel. It's funny, I think I've gotten to the point where I can even fool myself pretty well now. Once again, I feel so foreign, so out of place from myself. For sure I've identified myself with ideas/things over the years. Grades were a big part of it, and my Supra is a big part of me right now. I love anime, cars, video games, play tennis, feel that I'm pretty much "just a nice guy", and have an overall enjoyment for music and drawing. Thinking about it just seems to put me deeper into the hole of thought. The more I contemplate, the farther down I'm in my thoughts to a point where it seems like I'll never escape. I guess I'll pick this back up in the morning, even though it already is sort of 'the morning' already. It's nice to be back and just speaking my mind.
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